MaeWolf

sometimes…

I dont want to have empathy…it hurts to much…just reading about characters, watching a tv show…i cant watch american horror story, i get sick to my stomach and cry over that shit…even just thinking about it…and so many other stories, and news, and movies and ugh

i just hate feeling emotions for things that arent real…i have enough to cry about in life, i dont need this…:(

ANXIETY!

i had to stop playing dragon age 2 today due to my anxiety and having it make me be empathetic towards all the characters and their situations…i nearly cried :( lol

Last few harry potter movies…

I dont know if i will be able to watch them, especially the last two parts…all the deaths…i couldnt even finish the 7th book…i cried so much and was so depressed after the first death…i couldnt continue…one day i want to watch the movies..but…ive only gotten to the fifth and i dont remember watching it lol just know i did. i watched 1-4 tons of times though so yeah lol like i said, i read up until about the second chapter in the 7th book, far as i got..

i just read a very sad ending to a book and now i cant stop crying and feeling so bad for the characters and what they went through…i hate this shit, it makes me feel for people that arent even real, only because i know that people have gone through these feelings before and will again and it just hurts to know people have to go through it….i hate myself for feeling these things…

book was Athalie by Robert W. Chambers….i couldnt even read all of it…but i moved to the end and…just…